Creating a New Normal
We recently moved a very long way from anywhere we consider home. As I stood in my kitchen today, pondering how to redefine how it is that I exist in this new life, a sudden feeling of panic overwhelmed me. I didn't want a new sense of normal. I was fine with the old normal. I was happy with the job that I had, the friends that I left, the distance to my family. The friends I would normally go to to help me make everything ok are over 3,000 miles away and a phone call, text, or email are just not the same. I am tired of redefining my sense of normalcy. As all of these feelings washed over me and spilled over my lower lids I turned to something that is normal for me. I found something to create there, in my kitchen.
So, here you go. Here is my creation today. I wanted some schmear from Einstein Bagels. You know, the sundried tomato schmear. It tastes like a pizza right there on my bagel. I will go get bagels just to have this cream cheese spread in my fridge. I put it on nearly anything I can. Oh, and these beautiful sourdough crisps that Costco carries? Forget about it! I am pretty sure there is an Einstein's here in our city, but I certainly didn't have the energy to go find it. I had ingredients to make something pretty close. It satisfied me for the time being and focused my mind on something other than my woes.